Goodbye Xanga, Hello Blogspot

I had to say my farewell to my dearest friend Xanga today, since January 2003. It wasn't just any xanga, but it was Nameless_Hatty. Yes, it's ironic that the first part of my username was "nameless" and the second part was actually my name. I remember I always wanted to be 'different' and during that time, everyone was in the scene with these special nicknames like 'cutie', 'ace', 'sexy', you name it -- it identified someone. Some people would even get in fights with each other, over who had claim over it and who had it first, but this is another story for another blog. Anyway, I just knew I didn't want to be labeled by these akas that would not do justice to my identity. So, I ended up with 'nameless' except that I totally contradicted the first part by ending it with my name. Ha! If only I had known that it would be prophetic for what the blog would be about. Even though the username didn't make any sense at all, I realized later that everything I would write about would have something to do with my journey with God and that's what it became.

Seriously, xanga is where it all started for me. It's where I started to declare my love for God publicly. It's where I shamelessly shared my brokenness and wrote about the way in which God redeemed me -- especially my family. It's where I wrote about things I didn't really comprehend, but wrote about anyway because it just felt 'right'. It's where I searched for truth, for meaning, for validation (especially through comments hehe). It's where I searched for the 'I' in my identity in Him. As I am saying goodbye to my xanga, I'm realizing what my username really meant. It meant that I was called by my name by God, and that as I would search for my identity in Him that I would become so consumed by his identity to the point that I would be nameless. faceless.

I think this is where I am to begin my next journey on blogspot. Yes, I have officially converted to blogspot, but I am a xanga girl at heart. So I just wanted to dedicate my first entry to Xanga, the place where my journey first started. But above even xanga, I just want to honor holy spirit, Jesus, and God the Father who makes all things possible and declare that this new blog will truly honor Him, and Him alone.

Check it out though: www.xanga.com/nameless_hatty
**I still don't understand a lot of the stuff I wrote about =b